Awesome Blessings In Heavy Disguise

I really, really wanted the job.

It wasn’t just for the 6 figure salary either, it was because I wanted to make the jump into working in IT sales because it was an industry that fascinated me.

The first interview with the sales manager went like a dream.

They were interviewing about 20 people at that stage and he told me I would be invited back for the second round before I left the building.

He also advised that I read up on TCP/IP (transmission control protocol, internet protocol) for the interview with the sales director.

Knowledge of TCP/IP wasn’t a necessity as they had in-depth, in-house training, but it would be helpful.

It really seemed like he wanted to help me secure the position.

Off I trotted to my local book store and bought a book on the subject.

I then spent every night for the next week or so reading as much as I could for the second interview.

The Second Interview

The tip from the sales manager helped and the second interview went even better than the first, to the point that the director asked me what car I’d prefer, a BMW or an Audi?

Holy shit I was excited, but I knew there was a 3rd round which involved meeting with both of my previous interviewers and the CEO.

When I arrived I was  met by the sales manager who took me into a small room to brief me on the process.

I asked him how many people were left in and he replied, ‘Nobody, this is a mere formality, the job’s yours” and he immediately high-fived me.

I’m sure there have been occasions in your life when your gut instinct was telling you something wasn’t quite right, but you just couldn’t put your finger on what it was.

The entire final interview felt like that.

It seemed like the CEO took an instant dislike to me and was trying to trip me up at every turn. 

At the end I walked back outside with both the sales director and manager and they were telling me about the training, the perks, the expected income and we even took a look at one of the cars one of the other sales people used.

As we shook hands they said that a contract would be drawn up and they’d give me a call in the next few days to come back in to set everything up with HR.

But something felt wrong.

The Meaning of Silence

Every sales person knows that when a prospect goes quiet it’s often the first sign that a deal may be breaking down.

By and large, people don’t like communicating bad news and silence is often the default response.

After leaving 3 or 4 messages for the sales manager who was also called Tim, I got a phone call from him as I walked into the locker rooms after playing squash one evening.

He didn’t need to say anything after the initial, “Hi Tim, it’s Tim”, I knew I hadn’t got the job.

He seemed genuinely distraught and very embarrassed.

Apparently the CEO had vetoed my hiring for reasons Tim claimed he wasn’t even privy to.

The Immediate Effect

For a week I was crushed and I had to work hard to suppress a very unhealthy and dumb desire to call the CEO and tell him he could shove his job up his sweaty fat self-righteous ass.

The crushing feeling faded after a week or so, but the disappointment lasted a lot longer, in large part because I didn’t know what I’d done wrong.

I wasn’t fun to be around for a few weeks after that. 

I despised my current job even more. 

I despised the CEO. 

I, rather bizarrely, despised CISCO, as that was their service offering.

I despised sales people who drove Audi’s and BMW’s. 

I despised IT sales people. 

And I probably despised anybody who called my cell phone after I’d just finished playing squash.

Rational, mature and easy going weren’t words you would have used to describe me unless somebody had said to you:

You have 30 seconds to give me 3 antonyms to describe the character of Tim Brownson. Ready, set, go!”

An Awesome Blessing In Heavy Disguise

It was shortly after that that I knew I was done in sales even if it was to take a couple of more years before I finally broke away.

I was sick of the stress, the lack of integrity, the long hours, the back stabbing and politicking and the selfishness of many people in the industry.

Sure I had made some great friends, but even that coupled with the high pay wasn’t enough to make me want to waste the rest of my life doing something that left my soul feeling empty even if my wallet was full.

And so the slow transition into Life Coaching and leaving behind the UK began with that ‘failed’ interview a major motivator.

Give Me A Kiss Handsome!

If I met the CEO of that IT company today I’d walk up to him, plant a big wet kiss on his cheek and give him a huge hug.

I’d then thank him for taking a dislike to me and not offering me a job that would have been all wrong for me.

Maybe he sensed that? 

Maybe I didn’t give him the credit he deserved and he realized I was really only there for the money.

But most of all I’d thank him for helping me realize that events that may seem like disasters at the time may actually be awesome blessings in heavy disguise.

Now It’s Your Turn

I bet you have had crushing disappointments in your life that when you look back on them now you realize were really awesome blessings. Id love for you to share one (or more if you like) in the comments.